sensing savoring

another yoga training weekend complete — I gotta be honest, the mindful self-compassion focus of this program has been a tough ride for me. today was a body scan giving appreciation or sending compassion to each part of ourselves, followed by a walking meditation in which we were encouraged to sit with the moments we notice something nice. this is something that’s honestly difficult for me, because i’m hardwired to move on the next great thing before i’ve given the immediate moment it’s rightful attention. so, my 30 minutes started out with a few chores, as one does when they avoid stillness and quietude, but as i was watering my tomatoes, I noticed the rainbow formed from the fractals of light passing through droplets and just let my view widen for a bit longer. then, i noticed the birds needed more water in their bath. it’s a really hot day today, i couldn’t let them go without! so i shifted my aim to extend a further out. more rainbows. more light.

i also spent several minutes with my hand draped below the spigot after I turned the water off to catch the last of the water and let it find it’s own way down my fingertips and eventually the earth. the remainder of my time was mostly spent lying in my hammock, which is one of my favorite places to be on any given day, yet I haven’t given myself that gift in far too long. so, I just laid there and swung in the breeze

so anyway, it felt so nice i decided to take a selfie that doesn’t include my daughter for the first time in maybe her whole existence.